You need to hear it: Take some freakin’ responsibility for yourself and your actions (and the lack of action too). Because NO ONE coming to save you!
You KNOW you haven’t been doing the work that’s necessary!
You’ve been holding off, waiting, slacking etc. You’ve been waiting for a sign, or a helping hand, something or SOMEONE to help you, but you know what? It’s not coming! They’re not coming!
You can’t expect than someone or something will come down from the sky to solve all your problems! You have to do this ON YOUR OWN! This, meaning “going after your dreams and living your FUCK YES life”, of course!
You simply have to decide that you’re in it to win it, and ACT accordingly! If you need someone’s support, you simply asking.